I don’t really like talking about myself on my status updates.. saying that i’m mad or sick…sad or quoting something that relates to how i feel because when i’m about to do it… i think about it. then i think in my mind.. “i don’t want any pity.. people don’t need to know about my business and stuff..” i don’t know just a random thought. 

I guess I’m used to having to be strong for myself and some others that I don’t feel like I have the need to lean on anyone, so i don’t bother trying to voice it out. well… you know girls. we get those I’m sad or mad for no reason moments and people ask what’s wrong and it really is nothing but chemicals in our brains making us feel that way. i feel like i have those more often now. it kinda worries me cause i can sometimes get emotionally unstable when i’m by myself. Like i have the need to just go someplace by myself to just disappear or a bit which i’ve done a couple of times. I think I need to be able to start putting more trust into some friends and actually talking to them instead of privately blogging.